The age old saying of "Don't put off today what you can do tomorrow," has become my mantra. In fact applying this to my life has changed it for the better.
After half a day I already I feel more accomplished, full of life and more at peace in my own universe.
For years I have opted to give in and take my sweet indulgence, in doing so, eating my treat now and not later, has garnered me obesity,* justifying this foul o-word with terms of comedy & acceptance, "Ice-age preparedness."
We never know when the sun will set for the last time in our lives. I want to live without regret of what I haven't done or should have. We only truly have today.
Since the diagnosis of cancer last year, I have decided to procrastinate no longer. Choosing a healthier life style, mentally and physically, basically I was tired of being "sick" and tired. The cancer was symbolically more than a bad disease, and it wasn't only in my neck, it was a way of life, but no more. After a year of counseling and treatment, I welcome the new me, and seeing how I don't know how long this new lease on life is, I am going to live, with the intention of being who I always wanted to be, a mentally healthy and fit me. While the verdict is still out on the cancer status, I am choosing to live now, forget tomorrow.
Today I choose to be happy, to live like there is no tomorrow, love myself and others better than I ever have, with respect to life including my body and its well being, it is time to let my healthy self out.
Paying respect to my heritage, recognizing that our outward image is only skin deep, understanding my person, loving her, to the best of my ability and no longer allowing the spoiled brat within to reign. To know her personally - understand her needs, to nurture and grow from a caterpillar into a butterfly. While I may not appear Japanese or Native American on the outside, my obese body and plethora of ailments reflect the reality and rejection of the American diet. This is where my journey begins, right here, right now. Two hundred and nine pounds no longer.
* According to the people with more degrees than I.